Life In The Fast Lane, While Standing Still

It's so crazy the twists and turns life brings you. It seems like life is going so fast sometimes you can hardly keep up in the same sense that it's standing still and not moving forward, that's what I'm feeling right now. In this deep dark hole I can't quit crawl out of. I went to our cabin last weekend by myself with my parents and sister and her family to just get away and try and relax and think about life. I missed my family so much but the break was well needed. I should probably try and do it more often but it is what it is. Scott did a good job getting everything done by himself too. Life just sometimes sucks and growing up my parents always said that "LIFE IS NOT FAIR"! and boy is that ever right. I still think we are in shock from loosing Scott's mom, Grandma Cynthia that I find myself crying more and more each day because we are so hurt, mad, sad, and lost from the whole situation, luckily we don't have to go to her house anymore because it's all cleaned out now and on the market to sale so the realtor takes care of that, which is good cause it was getting to a point that we couldn't do it anymore. We Miss and Love her So Much that it hurts to the core. We've been up to her grave a couple times, we try and visit often for the sake of our sanity and children if that even means anything sometimes. Her children have ordered her headstone so that should be here in 4-6 weeks and that will be nice to have that there. It's beautiful and they did a great job on that and I hope they all found peace with it. I think our family dreads for the future because we don't know what it holds for us and my our children are dreading baseball season and seeing that empty seat on the bleachers where Grandma would sit and cheer, and after each game she would give the boys 1.00 each and they miss that so much and looked forward to that so I'm trying to think of other suggestions on what to do to help them. Any ideas would be great if you want to leave a comment! Luckily Braken has decided to play tackle football this year (which is a new sport for us) Scott and Jett have decided to coach (shocking, right?) so that has been on our schedule and mind ALOT lately. It is so much work I had no idea, I thought baseball was bad but football handsdown has proven that wrong by far. 6 days a week 2hrs a day of practice and games on saturdays. Braken absolutely loves it and I think it helps him keep things off of his mind. Payton is taking a break from sports right now which is good because he's spent a lot of time at the parks playing and that's been good for him to just be a kid. We can't wait for the football season to start with the Herriman Mustangs! Other than that were all hanging in there the best we can, School started Aug 15th so that was nice to get the boys back on a schedule and staying busy with school work, and me and scott tug along with work trying to stay busy. I'll post some more football pictures when the games start, Thanks for stopping by!!!